not happy at all.

Sunday, September 02, 2007

where are you when i need you?

BADTRIP. the "cheating" incident is not going well at all. in fact, it has gone worse!

oh dear. i don't know what to do or what to say anymore. i am just so tired.

i can't believe i'm ungrateful for the long weekends caused by the heavy rains. because of that, everything's just crammed into the little time that we have left for this sem. MPs every week, exams almost every day, org responsibilities every hour. not that i don't love what i'm doing, it's just that, i wish i could become more productive and less lazy (hey, i study more now! i am proud to say that i'm not that lazy anymore) and more balanced.

yes, as my friend says, things will work out. and i know it will. i just need some more reassurance. i know i can -- well, at least i did some time ago. i lost faith and belief in myself this sem and i don't know why. i've become an insecure self-pitying person. and i hate that. i want to become more confident and strong again. i need to put myself back together -- i just realized that i was still in pieces.

please, someone save me from all this sh*t.

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